And his guess is always good as mine. I'm blessed; he treats me so damn kind. [06 Sep 2008|05:24pm] oliviakatejaffe it's been nearly six months, and i'm no closer to getting over this than i was in the very beginning. blissmas.

[05 Sep 2008|09:17pm] formycaptain [ mood | sad ] slow fucking decline. i can't freeze time. it always comes to this. i don't want it to. i hope things get better. + feed the birds

High School Musical 3 callback for disneyland show [04 Sep 2008|04:10pm] letmeentertainu oh. my. god. what a two days i've had. so yesterday I went on the hsm3 disneyland audition in north hollywood, which was intimidating as all hell. about 140 people. 100 degrees in Noho. gorgeous, gorgeous people. it was so intense. but then it got funny, because i missed my number being called and then ended up by-passing the torture-wait line and went next. I sang, they asked if I had another song--didn't, so they had me do scales. UM SCALES ARE THE MOST TERRIFYING THING TO  HAVE TO DO DURING AN AUDITION. My vibratto definitely started quivvering, but they called me back. I was there from 9:30am-about 3:30pm dashed to irvine, which only took about an hour and ten minutes with this special "disney" shortcut someone gave me hahaha signed my lease, went to american apparel to get a shirt for the callback then went to the first little shop rehearsal. CRAZY. DAY. Callbacks today were even MORE intimidating than yesterday because they threw in the AGVA people already in the HSM 2 show. They called probably about 40 of us back and had us dance, which was actually really fun. Kind of hip-hoppy so right up my alley for sure. Then they made a cut, and I made it through!! I was so proud of myself because I was getting all these compliments (and from ppl already in the show), which made me feel a lot less intimidated. K, so then it was down to about 14 girls, they said they were casting 12--we sang a few songs from the show (which, were REALLY REALLY high...) and they made another cut. Didn't make it--BUT it kind of doesn't add up numbers wise because they cut 4 of us...making it down to 10 girls? After the dance portion cut, they told us everyone was fairgame for any of the disney shows--cruiseline, florida, tokyo, etc so maybe there's still hope. this job PAYED. $24/hr, $185/day...and i was LITERALLY a couple of girls from getting it. gahhhh so close!! i'm still very proud of myself, though...definitely need to get out to more disneyland auditions lol 2 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

[04 Sep 2008|12:42am] smartpatrol89 school is taking up more time than i thought. its awesome but devoting so much time to homework is excessive. i wish i didnt have to work and could just live off my parents. that would make things a lot better. ive met some pretty cool people at el co surprisingly. i got into my art class and i pwnd the project i had to do. the teacher looked at my hw and was like, you get the concept, you dont have to do extra work like 90% of the class. stoked on that. all my other classes seem to have an intermediate amount of work load. hopefully i can balance that with school and wolf. ps. the wolf has a surprise. you all still need to buy our cd. we sold like... about 15 give or take... :( i just updated our myspace for the first time in a while. put up new songs from the album for all of you to check out. www.myspace.com/thewolfishungry www.last.fm/music/The+Wolf + feed the birds

Trying to be completely honest for once [03 Sep 2008|12:44am] skemogorilla [ mood | courageous ] I just had a brief, stoned daydream wherein I found myself with a stub for one leg (originating from a hypochondriac concern about an aching lower leg.) In my daydream life, I was able to get an awesome prosthetic that allowed me to bicycle. If you have one leg, biking must be the easiest way of getting around. I've been spending large amounts of my days the past week daydreaming about a hypothetical future in which I have a different body. I envision a skinny version of myself, exuding cool confidence, getting compliments from cute girls to whom I deliver pizza. This happens every time I go on a diet. I actively seek this kind of wishful thinking daily, as if for some sort of strength. I am a weak person in most regards, but I am especially weak in the face of food. I miss it so badly. Almost like a lover. I've also been missing lovers I've never had. That one's harder to explain. New Life, Phase One started last Monday with the start of school. I'm taking six classes - Science Fiction Literature, The Short Story, Linguistic Anthropology, Mass Communication, Art in Modern Life, and Indian (as in India) Art. I love my classes, and feel a rejuvenation in spirit, in that I'm actually enjoying the gaining of knowledge in a school environment, and humbly appreciating the exercise of my poorly abused brain. During each class I daydream about acing the midterms, excelling in the dreaded group projects, and taking superb notes throughout. When I bike home, I daydream about women I'll some day kiss, and through daydream attempt to realize the absurd notion that some day, someone might possibly fall in love with me. This feels like a foreign impossibility, like a reconstructed history, like Hitler never died. I daydream about going up to a pretty stranger on the street and telling her I think she's beautiful. I wish I had the courage to actually say something meaningful and truthful. In the daydream, she looks down and says thank you, almost like a reflex. In reality, I don't know. 6 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

[30 Aug 2008|11:18pm] oliviakatejaffe this life, albeit sore at times, is a damn good life. with damn good company. (i want to live in this painting!) 7 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

[30 Aug 2008|10:29am] smartpatrol89 right when im ready to quit. right when im set up with a new job. shit falls apart. car insurance agencies dont cover people while delivering. and round table doesnt have insurance for their drivers. so if i were to get in an accident id be fucked. so i cant work there. now im stuck at target some more. i want a new job so badly. target is so fucked. 5 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

eek [29 Aug 2008|11:30am] catsupcollecter i'm considering taking the plunge. i like who i am without it, but after holding out for nearly 20 years, i forgot the point of waiting. pierce my ears? y/n? oh, and i have a sociology final but i figure i'm already screwed so why stress myself out, right? and i need to pack. dang! 3 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

[28 Aug 2008|10:19pm] formycaptain i found a turtle. school started, i'm sick, and distracted. 2 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

gyro. [28 Aug 2008|02:25pm] oliviakatejaffe + feed the birds

[27 Aug 2008|08:20pm] smartpatrol89 haha. life rules. school is gonna be fun this semester. im going to kick its ass. hopefully i get to stay in my art class... goodness. + feed the birds

[25 Aug 2008|05:53pm] smartpatrol89 started school today. its not bad. started some actual classes. im taking 3 m,w classes and 1 m,w,f class. classes shouldnt be half bad. my art class is full but my teacher is telling me to keep going cus she is sure people will drop. im secure in every other class. i also decided to take the initiative to tell my parents they are both paying for my classes so i can end the bitching between them about who buys and pays for more things for my brother and i. its been well past 10 years since they've been divorced and they have to stop arguing about money. its the fucking worst. note on top of that... my step mom was recently cleared of breast cancer and she went in for a check up and they found some bad things in her liver. idk what they found, my dad didnt specify, but im sure he is a wreck and its totally sad. my step mom is totally an awesome person and she doesnt deserve all these things nor does my dad... hopefully things will be ok. as far as my situation at home goes its not bad. i love living with grayson and charlie. totally fun all the time. as far as sharing a room with dani... idk. weve been in a few arguments and ive decided that im completely over it. like, COMPLETELY. i hope she comes to realize that and becomes a good friend again... with that all said... life is totally shaping up. after all those talks with so many people ive magically begun to realize that life isnt all that bad and its relatively easy to move on. i dont know if i can actually tell anybody how to make life seem so awesome so suddenly because it all just came to me one day but everybody was totally right and im stoked. end of postage. 2 tuppence a bag + feed the birds

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